Friends
I'm feeling kind of bummed out right now. I'm a week late for a hormone shot, so that might have something to do with it...
The past few days have been quiet around here. Too quiet. No one has called or emailed or stopped by to see how I'm doing in quite a while now and it's getting to me tonight. I'm starting to wonder if I never made the effort to get in touch with anyone, how long it would take certain people to even notice.
I'm not sure I'm trying to blame anyone here and say that they aren't good friends...things are just feeling a little too one-sided these days in pretty much every relationship in my life. I've always kept in touch with people and maybe everyone's just come to expect that I'll be calling sometime soon so they don't ever add it to their mental to-do list.
I don't like feeling this way though. I'm not the type of person who keeps score on how many times I've gotten in touch with someone vs. how many times they've reached out to me. I call people when I feel like talking to them, that's it.
I think I'm just worried about ending up as one of those people who slips in the shower and no one realizes I'm dead for a month. I suppose if I'm dead it really doesn't matter, but it still bugs me.
If you're reading this, I'm likely not talking about you. The people I have in mind are people who I'm pretty sure either don't know I have a blog or have forgotten that I do. I just needed to vent a little and the people I'd usually call up and do that with are a little too close to the situation.
The past few days have been quiet around here. Too quiet. No one has called or emailed or stopped by to see how I'm doing in quite a while now and it's getting to me tonight. I'm starting to wonder if I never made the effort to get in touch with anyone, how long it would take certain people to even notice.
I'm not sure I'm trying to blame anyone here and say that they aren't good friends...things are just feeling a little too one-sided these days in pretty much every relationship in my life. I've always kept in touch with people and maybe everyone's just come to expect that I'll be calling sometime soon so they don't ever add it to their mental to-do list.
I don't like feeling this way though. I'm not the type of person who keeps score on how many times I've gotten in touch with someone vs. how many times they've reached out to me. I call people when I feel like talking to them, that's it.
I think I'm just worried about ending up as one of those people who slips in the shower and no one realizes I'm dead for a month. I suppose if I'm dead it really doesn't matter, but it still bugs me.
If you're reading this, I'm likely not talking about you. The people I have in mind are people who I'm pretty sure either don't know I have a blog or have forgotten that I do. I just needed to vent a little and the people I'd usually call up and do that with are a little too close to the situation.
posted by Jessica at
10:52 PM
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I'm very guilty of that. I guess it's selfish, I don't know. I have a few different theories but I think it mostly comes down to being lazy.
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Waldo, At
March 6, 2009 1:13 PM
I've been thinking about it for a couple of days and there are people I do the same thing with. In those situations, I think it's that I know they'll be in touch so I don't bother. Yeah, laziness.
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Jessica, At
March 6, 2009 7:56 PM
I just don't have any friends so I expect I'll either have to have roommates or decompose in my shower...haha. OK - maybe that wasn't funny. I have a world famous blog so eventually someone will miss me :-)
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Mickity, At
March 8, 2009 5:54 PM
I missed your postings when you were out of town last week. It's good to have you back. :)
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Jessica, At
March 10, 2009 12:14 AM
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